Will Jay - I Need Control

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As a kid, I would do a lap around the house twice every night, make sure every door was locked, and I would touch the wall in certain places as I did it. It was the only way I could fall asleep because my brain automatically went to the worst places: what if the house burns down? what if a burglar tried to come in? I’ve carried a lot of that paranoia into my adult life, constantly feeling claustrophobic and hyper-aware of how I’m being perceived. My mind longs to have control, not only of my surroundings but of myself. I would say this song, along with Lies, are the mission statements of the album: the dark side that comes with being a perfectionist.


Written by: Will Jay, Sam Creighton
Produced by: Keaton Stromberg

Every time that I try to speak
It feels so calculated
If I say what I really mean
It’s like you see me naked

Not a word until I was 3
The doctors were elated
Thank god there was nothing wrong
And everything’s fine

Always on the edge of my seat
Never the right position
Check the doors are locked, 1 2 3
flip on and off light switches

Something bad could happen to me
House will burn if I didn’t
Make sure that the stove was off
Now everything’s fine

I need control
I need control

What will I do if I lose my mind
Hurt someone else, or myself
I’m terrified

These crazy thoughts, they won’t stop
Oh my
I feel the worst in me
Better tread carefully
I need control

Everybody please disappear
I’m feeling claustrophobic
Way past capacity in here
Hard to be easygoing

Suffocating’s my biggest fear
I can’t breathe in this clothing
Leave before something goes wrong
Now everything fine
I need control

Make a mistake
I go insane
What can I say, I’m a perfectionist

Slave to my brain
Circle the drain
What can I say, get me a therapist

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