Loving Me When I Can't Love Myself

The video is kinda pink indeed. The filmmaking was conducted during the months of July and August of 2021 and they depict various places in Greece. The storytelling of the video, as well as the poem, is a bit abstract because I feel the concept of love and mental health can be accurately depicted the less accurate you try to be. These are my thoughts and some glimpses of my summer, I hope you like it and maybe connect with it.

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-The music is this:
Midtro - Homeland

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🔰Loving Me When I Can’t Love Myself by illneas

At first
it was the sound of your voice
and the way it seemed you were hiding something

While you were sleeping I noticed your anxious breathing
but I didn’t say anything
The hardest part of loving them
when they can’t love themselves
Is accepting your inability to always make them happy

I know that something is bothering you
but I chose to ignore it
The hardest part of loving them
when they can’t love themselves
Is letting them find happiness
in the absence of you

I noticed that each smile seems
more forced than the last
The hardest part of loving you
when you can’t love yourself
Is convincing you
that this is not affecting me

You asked me to let you deal with it yourself
The hardest part of loving you
when you can’t love me
Is hiding from you
that something is bothering me

While I was sleeping you noticed my anxious breathing
but you didn’t say anything
You know that something is wrong
but you chose to ignore it
Each of my smiles seems more forced than the last one

The hardest part of loving me
when I can’t love myself
Is knowing that
I would do the same for you